When things move, as they inevitably do, it's sometimes difficult to focus on where they are moving to exactly. At the time you ride the movement and take what comes but when the moving slows down...and you look back...it's a pretty amazing picture.
I've been feeling dizzy (literally being dizzy) at the speed and intensity of the recent movements that I have been experiencing in the form of moving house, moving into becoming a dad, moving into new understandings about myself and others, moving my priorities and moving myself into a space where I can breathe and begin the next stage in my existence.
I am gently creating a space to bring new life- it's a wonderful process. It feels so liberating to have the opportunity to write about it too, to share with others, in the hope that they can gain something from it and realise they are not alone.
The world is noticeably changing now and we are here together, right now, to help this change.
I love you
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Tuesday 28 April 2009
Movement
Thursday 9 April 2009
Isolation
Now there is nothing wrong with being isolated. In fact it has been the most expanding, self-teaching, biggest learning experience of my life so far. So much has been allowed to freely change and grow in the place which I currently inhabit but it has reached its natural end. It is time to move into a town where the community lives and begin sharing the footpaths again.
I will have lived in what some could genuinely call 'isolation' for a year. That's enough time. I had the opportunity to grow food in a huge garden but it passed me by. The neighbours love to hear me playing piano, they are friendly (the 6 neighbours that there are) and it's been a wonderful time.
When I leave work, or a friends, or a gig and drive up the road to come home, when i am driving from civilisation into a village that probably only has a few hundred inhabitants, up the quiet empty track to the quiet cottage... it feels like i've just run away from everything. It feels like I am a million miles away from family, friends and loved ones. Of course this is an illusion as I am always in constant cuddle distance of my loving, wonderful lady... but sometimes we all need different interactions with different people. I know she feels the same too. We're going to be a family soon and it is my belief that the closer we are to more people, the better it will be for everybody.
I am a social person. I love interaction. It's time to interact now :)