Musical Happiness

As Human Beings we hold the world together. We're sharing in the creation and destruction of matter on a day-to-day basis most of the time without even being aware of what we are doing right now. Most of us are totally unaware of how we are BEING while we are doing and focus a lot on what we have BEEN doing... that's why we're such a mental bunch of people!

My band SAY which is actually a band of musical people, all extremely talented and creative in their own ways (including myself) are always creating something.

We had the opportunity recently to go over to Germany to promote our new album Multiverse by performing a few gigs. The label who put our album out, Aufgeladen Und Bereit, had organised promotion, magazine advertisements, gear sharing and the venues including accommodation and such like. An amazing thing to do for us and for this i am eternally grateful. However, Maria has a little new life inside her in the form of a baby and the closer it got to setting off and playing, the more risky it seemed to become for the protection of this delicate human being. It's Maria's first pregnancy so there is no way of predicting how this journey is going to unfold...

We had to cancel. A flood of guilt, tears, anger, sadness and desperation swept through the band challenging our very cores of loyalty, commitment and friendship. I nearly gave up music forever, Rob nearly left the band, Maria nearly walked away... it was intense and upsetting. But we haven't done those things.

The realisation for me is the fact that no matter what the circumstances or situation- we all love each other very much. It's that feeling which is powering the whole band in the first place. The songs come from that feeling, the performance is a result of that collective passion and joy, our recordings bubble up from the excitement we share about creating something amazing and beautiful together...

So for me, no matter what happens, I will always put my energy into that feeling of Love, companionship and Joy of making music together. Even if we had to turn down a gig at Wembley supporting the Flaming Lips, Grizzly Bear and Paul Funking McArtney's CHIPS (which would of course be with very good reason!) I would make it my imperative decision to keep feelings of Love, Happiness and companionship at the top of the list.

It doesn't bloody matter WHAT we're doing... what matters is how we are FEELING because only then does the music have any impact. That's where the power comes from...